Thursday 16 December 2021

Reclamation

 Reclamation

 

The rats got in, the rats and the mice,

Into all that had been left behind:

The clothes, the toys, the unmade bed.

They gnawed and chewed, nested and bred;

Birds too, starlings and sparrows,

And the shit everywhere, slimy and greasy,

With the slow rot of time, the damp, the heat …

The weather raged: the rain, the snow, the wind,

The sun cooking up a dreadful stew.

The brickwork stove slumped and collapsed,

And the chimney- once repaired - relapsed.

The roof sagged, the woodwork buckled and warped.

Indifferent, abandoned, forlorn, the family long gone -

Gone to the city, with its parks, cinemas and zoos,

With its work and distractions, the culture, the church -

The house gave up, gave itself up, with nothing to lose;

Jilted, denied, and left in the lurch, it closed its eyes.

It would have moaned, creaked, cracked and split,

Sounds almost human to the attentive passer-by;

For a house needs people to keep nature at bay.

And the garden? It surrendered unto itself:

An uprising of weeds and wild flowers, the trees bleeding

Sap, shedding leaves, shouldering the eaves aside.

The survival of the tenacious, of the rapacious,

In which small worlds collide -

The spiders, the beetles, the ants and the bees.

From the road, the house became forest,

Became invisible, not so much decay

As reclamation. Undisturbed.

The rats, the mice, the birds.

 

Sunday 28 November 2021

untenable

Untenable

 

Here’s a puzzle for you she says

and throws the pieces in his face

 

They flutter like confetti

take their time to settle

 

half his face

 

a ringed finger on a woman’s hand

 

something out of focus in the background

 

She turns around and leaves

righteous with his imagined grief

 

He tries to unimagine her being unbereaved

Thursday 11 November 2021

Poem

 










Poem

 

… there on the branch just out of reach

branches as other hands fingers splayed

swayed by the current under the surface of sky

 

and stretching as if you could touch

and by touching know and knowing say

the words like water like air   a breath   a reprise

 

under the surface of sky swayed by the current

fingers splayed as other hands reach

just out of touch there on the branch

 

stretch as if you could say and by saying

touch and touching know the current

to breathe the water the air like words …


Thursday 14 October 2021

Simple Machines

 








Simple machines

Let us imagine the machinery

the cogs the ratchets the pawls

laid out on the floor

then being meticulously assembled

and oiled the gauge calibrated …

Could Icarus take flight?


Forging the sky the weight of myth

the blue the white the colossal clouds

soft-limbed and below

the sea muscular sculpted

immense and breathing pulsing

against an iron-rimmed horizon …

 

Simple machines a lever a wedge

a bit of pushing and pulling

another turn of the screw

a tightening a loosening

a wheel within a wheel

an inclination

 

the Minotaur in the labyrinth

running scared hungry

running into walls

gone off the rails

another child on the loose   

lost

Saturday 18 September 2021

What of the end, Pandora?


 








What of the end, Pandora?

 

Pandora returns to the kitchen late one night

unsure of what has brought her there

perhaps some troubled dream

that still haunts the 40-watt gloom

the lazy shadows that line the walls like maps

she leans on the back of a high wooden chair

and surveys the room the unwashed dishes

littering the table piled in the sink

the toys strewn across the floor

a naked doll in a shoe box

the fruit bowl a study in decay

but beyond the surfaces

and on a high shelf at the back

behind a bottle of Tesco’s whisky

is the jar the lid still screwed in tight.

 

The next day, sometime after two

in the garden on the rickety table

she sets down an apple the jar the bottle

and sits down throwing off her shoes

she lies back closes her eyes

can hear her daughter singing the blues

as she climbs the steps to the slide

she stretches out her hand to catch at the …

and as her sleeve rises up her arm

she sees the tattoo just below her wrist

“Gods’ Gift” her fingers pause …

 

Halfway through the whiskey the apple gone to core

she picks up the jar and puts it to her ear

wonders if it will purr like Schrödinger’s cat

she hears the beat of wings things borne

all that is left when all else escapes

takes flight flees a prisoner all but released

the dregs the lees there’s so little air to breathe …

 

What of the end?

She wipes the earth from her hands

but the dirt has been ingrained

she rubs at a spot but it won’t come out

the stain the prophecy the reading of the banns

the spreading of the pall

will these hands never be clean?

She empties the last of the whisky

over the grave

and as the rain begins to fall

she calls her daughter from a game

all too human

 

considers the torment of hope


Check out the following links

http://mural.uv.es/spricas/pandora.html

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schr%C3%B6dinger%27s_cat

http://nietzsche.holtof.com/reader/friedrich-nietzsche/human-all-too-human/aphorism-71-quote_d3cd42c76.html

https://www.yorknotes.com/alevel/english-literature/macbeth-alevel/study/plot-action/01210100_act-v-scene-1






Tuesday 24 August 2021

Learning to write

 


Learning to write

 

The house is fully furnished:

A mother, three kids and the TV;

The father is upstairs, attached to a guitar:

An intricate arrangement of strings and chords;

An intimate arrangement of bodies and words.

 

My hobby, he once declaimed,

Is not playing the guitar,

It’s learning to play the guitar.

Then he took himself off for a session.

A terse man, pithy under the skin.

Once, maybe twice,

He’d handed me the guitar

Like a baton, like a lesson.

I never learned. He never listened.

 

And so, only when the music stopped,

Was the poem written.

 

Now, sometimes, if I listen very hard

I can still hear the fingers at work:

The tiny metallic flowers blooming,

Filling the air; dandelion heads

Going to seed, wind-blown.

 

The time is always the same: too late.



This poem was initially inspired by Carolyn Kizer's Thrall. See the link below.


The original of the picture above is by Regina Cassolo Bracchi.
For information about her see the link below.


Friday 30 July 2021

Family Therapy

 








Family Therapy

 

Tell me,

 

Were you ready for this?

Being asked to undress,

 

The tone polite but stern.

The folding of your clothes …

 

Was it tea or coffee

That you dunked the biscuit in?

 

I could, I suppose, agree

That when they asked who did it -

 

Who started the fight,

Who committed the theft -

 

That you looked up right,

Or that you looked up left.

 

Are you looking up now,

As if you’d know somehow?


Monday 12 July 2021

Still









It’s in a shoebox under the bed - still

 

She’s young here

a stranger to me

the photo

its moment of happiness

excludes me

 

Young and happy

the picture captures this

imprisons and endlessly repeats it

still as Zeno’s Arrow

 

Yet no one remembers it

this deictic moment this little death

 

It lives only in the image

and what I now bring to it

yet still the wound

the piercing of the heart

 

It’s all there is and then it’s gone.

Monday 21 June 2021

Solus

 













Solus

On the edge of everything there is something:

The mind, cradled by bone and skin,

Is the shore for an ocean’s wave -

With the kiss of kith and kin -

Rolling shadows into this island cave.

 

On the edge of everything there is nothing;

It hovers on the periphery of being,

But sometimes it slides into view

Like a fin slicing through water,

Cutting a hole in the whole … thing.

 

A whole is a whole by virtue of its parts;

A hole is hole by virtue of what surrounds it.

 

Everything but Nothing can be shared.


https://www.damienhirst.com/the-physical-impossibility-of


Thursday 3 June 2021

Offstage

 








Offstage

She’s backstage in wardrobe,

Being measured up:

The final touches to costume,

Hair and make-up.

She can hear muffled voices,

Layered on the silence:

The ruffled noises of actors and audience,

The occasional scratching of applause,

The sharpening of the critics’ claws.

 

She shuffles around the stage -

Her slippers scuffing the polished floor -

Rearranging the props,

Shifting the scenery,

Changing the backdrops.

 

She’s working on trying

To remember her lines,

And how to figure in her cues.

But she keeps forgetting,

Drifting off … is carried away …

 

Then, prompted,

She exits stage left,

Wanders down the abandoned corridor,

Past the glitzy Stations of the Cross

That line the walls,

Climbs the narrow, crepuscular

Staircase, gripping the twisting,

Muscular bannister,

Calmed and worn smooth

By familiar hands.

 

At the top, a door ajar;

She finds herself in the gods,

Looks around, takes a seat,

Takes a breath,

And stares down

Into the teeming, atomised dark,

Sits waiting for the next show to start.


Wednesday 12 May 2021

The Slanting of the light

 














The Slanting of the Light

 

You left them sitting in a room,

Backstage, behind a closed door,

For years,

Waiting for it to open

And for you to come back in

Larger than life - spotlight, drum roll – ta-dah!

With an invitation to the reunion;

Or perhaps they were hoping

For something small:

For a supplicant’s tentative knock,

For something to rouse them

From the stupor of sour memory,

For some good reason to cross the floor,

To ask who’s there, to open the door,

To set the dust motes aflight,

To change the slanting of the light.

 

But no one ever knocked

And the light remained unbent,

Unbending.

And now the door is locked,

And the room is empty and unaired,

Filled with music - no one has ever heard -

To announce the happy ending.

Thursday 22 April 2021

An ocean

 



An ocean washes the shore of this island

 

The days roll in upon the beach,

Seethe and foam and then retreat

And the sand sucks in each one;

Footprints roam, fill and dissolve,

The years are erased and scrolled,

Experienced and then gone –

Scuttled or shipwrecked -

The water clogged with wrack;

Yet still the sirens sing along,

Whilst tides wreak havoc at your back.

 

Beyond the beach, the trees …

Out of reach … and on your knees.


Sunday 4 April 2021

A moment


 







A moment

 

The wind has dropped, coming in over the lake;

The storm, with its wild unrest, has moved on,

So now the ripples barely reach the shore:

The muscle of water relaxed; cloud borne away.

And the light lingers now, is altered and slow,

More smoulder than burn, as if the lifted lid

Of sky were hesitant to be lowered -

The moment is time, gathered and stored -

Only, finally, to slip from your fingers,

To slide shut on the darkness.

 

On the far side, away from the house,

The trees are gathering in the shadows

To separate black from blackness.

And soon the moon at your back will slink

Quietly into the water, quivering

Just below the surface, like a thought,

And you won’t turn to stare it in the face

But simply watch how it dances - elusive and alone,

Amorphous, trying to keep afloat -

Only, finally, to feel it sink like a stone. 


Tuesday 16 March 2021

Windfall







Windfall

 

I have grown old;

A shrub turned tree

Now lost in the forest of itself,

Where dreamed of maidens wandered,

Where fires were built

And the heat was squandered

On vast star-filled skies

In a universe that was at a tilt.

Now the fruit has fallen to the flies.

 

I have grown cold,

The branches without a single leaf

To cover what was faith, what was belief. 

Tuesday 2 March 2021

Betrayal

 







 


Betrayal

 

There’s an intimacy in blood:

A map of his heart upon the wall,

The shape of a country

She’d thought she’d fully explored,

But now the borders were closed,

For good.

 

She envied the mosquito

That last touch of his skin,

That kiss, the taste of him.

 

The betrayal, the fall from grace;

With death, like a slap in the face.


Wednesday 3 February 2021

Unhappiness












Unhappiness  (an extract)

 

John believed that it lived in the cupboard

Under the stairs with the forgotten

Boxes of candles, and other odds and sods;

That there was a redolence

Of mouse droppings about it,

Or something pissy and fishy;

That it was silent and needed to be spoken to,

To be taken outside, bashful and embarrassed,

Apologetic, and given what for.

 

Janet imagined it skulking around the attic,

A stranger in a stranger’s house,

Rooting through the relics of the past

With bony fingers rimmed with dirt,

Releasing the clasps of old suitcases,

Wisps of dust, looking

For something of us to wear,

Swearing with a lisp in the foul air,

Rank and jealous,

As it hunted for something holed and frayed

And reeking of musk,

Seeking a skin to fill that had been flayed;

That it was simply unspoken,

And unspoken of.